Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Sick.
Ok, sch started.
One word - sian.
It tells everything right? Duh, for someone who dread sch and hating almost every lesson that speaks assignment. Its only the 2nd day of sch, and half of my modules had already talked about the upcoming assigment's duedate. Sucks sia.
Oh, FIY, wed is an off day for my class. So i have no sch today. Speakin of it, it feels good. After 2 days of packed lesson, one day of rest, another 2 days of packed lesson, weekends is here. Enough rest i suppose? (Y)
Ytd, stayin in sch watchin some show. I wanna ask u guys. Have u encounter a sudden fear that pops out suddenly about death, when u r doin things like watchin tv? It just comes out of nowhere, made me have a thought about death. Nothing good about it, it just makes ur fear about death so distinct as though u r gonna die next few months. It felt terrible. I dunno how to put it in words... i hope im not the only one who have this sudden fear.
So while watchin show ytd, the fear came to me again (i had many encounters in the past)
Somehow, i wished i haven been born to see the world, knowing that u r gonna leave this earth one day. If i hadnt been born, i wouldnt have to face the fear of dying when u r so alive doin random things, like eating, or havin fun with ur frens.
Ytd, i realised, dying, also means being lonely. Sleeping forever, all by urself. I dun believe in those souls and spirits thingy, no heaven nor hell, just the way u were b4 u r born. U dun even no wads earth and being alive sort of death. I fear that.
I always had the fear when im alone, mostly when watchin tv, or daydreaming. But ytd i had company, i shouldnt had that thought.
Well, anyway, maybe it's cause im watchin some detective sort of show? Watching some poor old man kena ignored by his son, like how being old feels, and going to die anytime soon.
Or maybe, i've been watchin too much vids on how ppl being run over and cut into half and still alive, talkin somemore. D= Or how life is that vulnerable. You can die just so easily, and the rest of the world couldnt even bother... Quite sad actually.
Ok, so much crap about death. I was hopin that some other ppl has the same fear sometimes so that i wont look like a freak. Jh was so optimistic about death when i talked about it, i couldnt believe. He somehow fail to calm me down by sayin death is really nothing. I suppose he doesnt have that sudden fear. I wasnt being myself much ytd.
Do you have this kind of fear?
Anyway, i really dunno wads happen to me, after that death thing, i was suddenly very tired. (while watching Fringe, if u r interested) I was turning really sleepy, abit of a headache.
When time was up, we went home. On the way, my head felt bad, headache plus giddy. Every step prick the back of my head. Felt nausea, got the feel of vomitting. Din wan to eat nor drink, even plain water. Walkin like i was drunk. Throat felt terrible when i tried to swallow. I was sure im sick. Dunno is cause of fever or flu.
Went home check temp, 37.58. Zhun zhun on the dot. Directly went to sleep and my temp went back to normal today. But still a lil nausea. It was worst when i tried swallowin my maggie. Damn. I hope im ok.
Now about pictures.....
Ytd saw two hunter. Black and a white.
Tada! Pl look so much more like a sotong here. Hahaha. Actually jt din had her hood on. Is i wanted to lisiao her, make two ppl wear hoodie. Moreover one white one black. LOL
Quite a scene actually. I was fascinated! They look pretty much like hunter. Kinda cool. =D
Black hunter - JT
White hunter - PL
During OOPM i believe. That was roughly about my day. I must get enough rest and stay healthy. And i hope the thought about death wont always appear out of nowhere. I wont die so early... will i?
BYE.
LIMFENGLING
