Stress
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Everybody are doing very well.
These few days have been browsing around those people who were one part of my life. Things have change, now all of us are on a different route in life. They change, in their appearance. They might have change, in their character. I sometimes do think back, to those who had lived in my life once before, and wonder how they are doing.
Do they?
Browsing through people that look so different, so much prettier. To be honest, I'm pretty envious. Some slim down. How did they do that? Pretty astonished with how much they'd change.
I wish to be thin too. If you have the body, wear something nice. People have the opportunity to wear great clothings. And yet cause they feel weird in wearing girls clothing, they avoid wearing as much as possible. -.- I've always hated how much girls with great body dun appreciate their body and feel that pretty things they wear doesnt look nice cause they dun have a good body. I've always hated how much slim girls complain about their body and call themselves fat when they are thiner than everybody else. They are a serious brainless piece of shit tryin to insult everybody around her who are of bigger size.
You have slimmer legs be proud of it. Dun regret not treasuring it when you turn 30.
These thoughts have been in my mind for a few days. How i wish to be slim and wear nicer clothes too. :/
Anyway, i've been pretty stressed up by the photo narrative that i have to do. How the hell am i going to find emotive youths to let me take photos of them? I dun have friends like that luh.. D=
Oh my god.. kill me... I hate photography assignments. =(
Actually, I dun enjoy taking photos either.. I'm seriously feeling damn stress to find available models for my assignment.
Friday test coming.. and im so not prepared. People who even bother to search for textbooks make me feel that im definately not going to do well for my paper... And im pretty fed up with myself.
I'll do my best.. but i wont be so confident to say that anymore when i get my results. Exams sucks big time. =(
Daiko concert is coming.. and lots of daikoreans are nervous about it. Actually i dont. I'll only get nervous when the concert is about to start. But not now. I've been to alot of preformances. This upcoming concert to me.. is just like any other live performances.
Not feeling particularly excited about it when daikoreans shares the same excitements. Feels weird about it.
Pretty sad, none of my friends are interested to see me drum. I've only sold out 2 tickets. So ashamed. I think im gonna be the one who has the most tickets unsold.
I really wish my mum can come see me drum. As well as my father. Father gave me a "see how first" reply. Mum told me she can come.. But im not that sure about that.
Hais...
Stress, everything also stress. Next entire week is intensive training. Oh my god.
Blah.. off to do some revisions. Before i cannot stop my self from ranting more..
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